can anyone help me? or any suggestions?

I have been suffering with axiety for years it has been the past 3 years that it has become worse and now it has become a constent thing. When I wake up I am having one.
I do not go to a doctor cause i cant afford to go to one.
I have been taking xanax which just doesnt do anything to me anymore.
The attacks have me stuck in the house with the feeling of fear waking up with upset stomach shaking tingling the feeling of my head swelling weakness and sooo sooo much more. I dont know what to do and it has be scared.
If anyone out there has any suggestions or would like to just chat. I need help and I dont want to be on medications to help myself. I have already developed a dependency on xanax.
Can anyone help me understand all this PLEASE.

thank you and much love to u all
lilith